experiences.

WRITTEN ON SUNDAY JUNE 24TH!

right now, i am only able to share experiences. because right now, i don’t know quite what i am feeling or what i’m learning. maybe i should. i’m not sure, all i know is that i don’t. so i’m learning to be okay with that. 

i want to. it’s frustrating to not be able to know why you are upset. or why you feel the way  that you do. 

im guessing that it comes with time. i really truly hope so. 

i have the responsibility to tell people what i have seen & what is happening here though. so i will continue to share what i know & share what is going on here. and with time i will share the rest. time.

i usually know what i am feeling & why, so it is frustrating not to know. but i am learning to trust jesus. the future & the here and now is in his hands. i am learning more & more about trust every day here.

so let me tell you what i know & maybe a little bit of what i think.

i am in love with the simplicity of life here. i know that God has me to live somewhere in africa one day. that has been confirmed over & over again while here. there is a special love in my heart for african children. i love them more than maybe i have loved any person before. the love comes from so deep & i just know that it is from God.

we were in a van on the way somewhere when i felt God say to me so clear, “You will love these children, and you won’t even be able to control it, because I  have instilled this love in you.” 

i love the smell of africans(it’s called no deodorant ;) . i know that it is freeing to be living such a slower pace of life. i know that God is using every single situation & adventure here to shape me. i know that my heart is so content & so so so full here. a fullness that i have not experienced before.

i know that i am starting to fall in love with africa && the lifestyle here.